God. I was reading on Wikipedia about infamous LJ'ers (I was REALLY bored), and one of them was this girl who murdered her mother. MURDERED. HER MOTHER. At age 16. And why? Because she kept having fights with her over bad grades. Talk about fucking petty (on the girl's side. she murdered her mother because her mother was upset about her grades.).. anyhow, what makes me sick is, some of her enteries are still up, right? And all these people comment in her livejournal like "I MISS YOU I LOVE YOU OMG I HOPE YOU ARE OKAY"

I want to reply to all those fuckers like
HELLO YOU STUPID IDIOTS YOUR 'SWEET' FRIEND KILLED SOMEONE

Why are people so stupid? Why? Why? WHY?

I'm feeling pretty bummed tonight.

I WANT A NEW LIVEJOURNAL

I just got the urge. But I don't know what .. to make my username be. I like this one, but still..

Cody's brother is a pigfucker. I swear.

I just finished Twilight Princess. The very end made me cry. It's very sad. ; ; That's all I'll say.
(I'll probably start over tonight.)

Nana] You still awake?
Hachi] yes
Nana] Whatcha doing?
Hachi] just watching tv. are you gonna ask me what I'm wearing next? xD
Nana] What are you wearing?
Hachi] I'M ONLY TYPING WITH ONE HAND 8D

I've got four weeks to lose ten pounds. More if I can. Wish I had a scale so I could actually TELL >O

Oh MANS. I just spend the last two hours doing the second-to-last dungeon in Twilight Princess. It was very nerve-wracking, because you had to do this thing while being chased by this thing which could steal the thing you needed.. (semi-censored because I don't want to ruin it for people like Zak who have yet to play it!) XD Anyhow yeah, the thing chasing me really freaked me out, and I could feel my heart rate pick up, because when I'm playing these games I always feel like I'm the one being attacked/chased/whatever, and it really scares me some times. XD I don't know, I'm weird ..

.. but I'm probably going to cry at the end of Twilight Princess just like I did at the end of Ocarina of Time. I was so sad that it was over! T___T I felt like a little part of me had died .. okay, maybe not that extreme, but I was pretty upset .. I love these games. It's not like I can't play it again, sure, but there's really nothing like that first playthrough .. I still need the piece of heart from the fucking Yeti though, and then I'll have all twenty hearts .. Whoo. ^^

Midna r0xx0rz! >O (Just had to throw that in there ..)

[cody] I think that not trying to fight [Yeta, the Yeti] with the sword would help.
[me] Oh, no, you're supposed to hit her once you land that first time, to get her out of your way.
[me] Otherwise you'll never get ahead.
[cody] Hmm, I see, okay.
[me] 'Cuz she is like
[me] uberfast
[cody] Yeah.
[cody] I think it is the lack of arms.
[me] Oh man, I never thought of that
[me] Probably cuts back on the ol' wind resistance
[cody] Yes. LOL!!!

1. Elaborate on your default icon.
Umm. It's mocking Dir en grey's new single, "Agitated Screams of Maggots" in an inside-jokey kinda way between Hachi and I.. XD

2. What's your current relationship status?
God only knows, wtf.

3. Ever have a near-death experience?
I almost drowned once~! I was standing on a big rock in a river and got swept in. Thankfully, and maybe a bit ironically, dad taught me what to do if that ever happens like.. a week before. And he dove in after me. My daddy is my hero. :B

4. Name an obvious quality you have.
I have a very short temper.

5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
I think it's called "Suddenly I See" by K.T. Thunstall or however you spell her last name. I want her CD. I like her music a lot ..

6. Name a celebrity you would marry.
Hyde.

7. Who will cut and paste this first?
Uhh. Charissa?

8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
Kana. XD

9. Do you wear a watch?
No. I own one, and it's somewhere, but .. I just use my phone .. or, a clock ..

10. Do you have anything pierced?
My ears, twice each.

11. Do you have any tattoos?
Two, both having to do with Hyde, hurr hurr. :B

12. Do you like pain?
Only if I'm feeling masochistic.

13. Do you like to shop?
Like Hachi I shop away my depression. :D

14. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
A movie ticket. I wasn't too impressed with the movie, even though I <3 Kate Winslet. (It was The Holiday.)

15. What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card?
Books at Borders.

16. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
Uhh. Probably Cody ..

17. What is on your desktop background?
A picture of Hyde looking kinda old.

18. What is the background on your cell phone?
It's just black. I can't have cool backgrounds, so far as I know.

19. What was the last movie you watched?
I reiterate: The Holiday. It had potential but it failed. It was not worth the money.

20. What was the last book you read?
Kamikaze Girls by Novala Takemoto.

Last night I had the best dream EVAAAR.

I was at some kind of theme park in god only knows where, and I was with someone, but since it wasn't clear in my dream who it was I don't remember now. It's not important anyhow. I sat down in front of one of the rides - there was a little space sectioned off by some flowerbeds - and for some reason there were a lot of other people sitting there too. A lot of Asians, mostly. So I was just sort of like "? ? ?"

Then around the corner walks Hyde, leading his band, dressed down in jeans, a sleeveless shirt, hooded vest, sunglasses and one of those sort of pageboy looking hats (but more like the one Yasu wears)... I was too shocked to freak out like everyone else, so I just stared as Hyde sat one person away from me. I think he was going to preform or something, but the girls were screaming too loud for him to do anything.

Night falls, and the girl next to me leaves (WHY? WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?). I move over, and I'm going to talk to Hyde - I start to, anyhow, but he suddenly yanks me towards him and starts kissing and biting my neck! At first I was like "WHAT THE HELL" but then I was all wrapping my arms around his neck and shit, letting him do his thing. It felt reaaally good, even in my dream. Suprisingly, no one else in the crowd was like ">O!"

Suddenly it is daytime again - late morning the next day - and I'm in the same theme park with Hyde. Apparently we're on a date. We were sitting on a blanket under a tree in a little park area, talking about something, and then suddenly making out again. But this time we were actually kissing, Hyde wasn't just assaulting my neck. (I remember in my dream being worried he'd leave a mark..) He was dressed the same, too. But it didn't matter. I WAS MAKING OUT WITH HYDE.

And then another sudden change, and I'm back in my hotel room, writing back and forth with Hachi in this pink notebook. The only thing is, Hachi's not there. This notebook is magic and sends IMs, and I'm trying to tell her about Hyde, but she keeps telling me to 'bid on this doll I have on ebay that looks like mine!'

I get a text from Hyde on my phone that doesn't make too much sense (it was very Engrishy) about meeting at the front of the park at 6 PM. He called me his girlfriend in the message. 8D The whole dream I was thinking 'What about his wife? Oh well, it doesn't matter, I'm Hyde's girlfriend!"

I look up from writing in the magic pink notebook and there's this laptop monitor, and I've gotten an IM from Charissa. It was big green letters, and it said "I don't know what I did. I was looking at tickets to China, I clicked buy, and here I fucking am in China! They're serving lots of drinks, though, so it's all right!"

I IMed Charissa back saying that I had another date with Hyde in an hour, and what should I wear? She told me she knew a girl who was great with makeup and 'shit like that', and that she would send her over. I was waiting for this chick to come, and thinking about my next date with Hyde, when I woke up.

Fuuuuuu. HYDE'S GIRLFRIEND. What the hell. I rarely EVER have Hyde dreams ...

"I know that [they] are people and not posessions .. and I know it's wrong to think like that. People can be together, but ultimately we're all alone. I know it's just impossible to make someone mine .. but sometimes that realization .. just makes me feel lonely .."

Okay guys, I need some opinions. Here are my options for Dir en grey live outfits.

Option 1
Cut-up black shirt
Straight-leg jeans
Tetsuboots OR creepers
Various leather accessories

Option 2
This shirt
Majorly slashed-up straight-leg jeans
Tetsuboots OR creepers
Various leather accessories




I LOVE VIVIENNE WESTWOOD

I like wearing these small shirts. They only remind me of how pretty I'd look if I was a little thinner.

Well, I've officially set my "move to Japan" plan in motion.

I guess I've gotten so restless lately that I've finally gotten myself in gear. It was nothing big, of course, I'm just getting the email address of one of my dad's friend's daughters, who works at the American embassy in Japan and no doubt could help me find residency and teach me about living there. She's fluent in Japanese - it's nothing but positives - and only about five or six years older than me. I'm sure we could become friends.

I'm about $5000 short of what I'd need for the first view months of being there, but I bet my parents would lend me money that I didn't have by the time it was time to move.

My mom won't be very happy about it, but .. I went and talked to Mrs. Strother today and she reminded me that if you want to do something, you just need to fucking do it (not her exact words, of course). All I do is sit around and think about moving to Japan, but now I'm going to do it. I hate the US, I hate living here, and I want to start some kind of life in Japan.

At least I'm finally taking charge! Now, hopefully Geneve will help me out. <3 I'll also be near Naotaka! <3 And Hide, whenever he gets back. <33

I feel so nostalgic. The Sailor Moon manga I ordered a while back has come, and it's so strange to be reading it again. This was my childhood, man. My life was Sailor Moon back then. I still have a lot of my old Sailor Moon stuff in the garage, and the lap desk that my friend Sam painted with Sailor Uranus for me. It makes me laugh when I think I used to want to draw like Takeuchi Naoko, but at the time I was much worse than I am now, so I suppose it was a nice aspiration. Now I'm happy trying to draw like Yazawa Ai (she's a thousand times better than Takeuchi Naoko - just look at her drawings from NANA and stuff compared with Sailor Moon). Also: Sailor Moon's last volume came out in 1997, officially 10 years ago. Wow.

Everyone please keep your fingers crossed for me, I am looking at a loft apartment in Bloomington.. :D

Sometimes when I come in to work, it smells like raw meat. I love those times. Double-spice chai is delicious.